morning distractions lean?

Hi i don’t know how long i’ll make this but I feel very anxed at the moment. Something happened to my phone along with other things ut whatever i’m not going to really going to dwell on much. I need to come up with a new plan. I’m reverting to what I don’t want to.

First, I need to start doing research on all the construction thats happening in LA. I mean I’m not looking for a giant conspiracy or something, I just want to know what they’re building, where they’re building the most (because I feel like it is extreme everywhere right now.

I saw this video that said many people use the same way they cope with things and the way that they celebrate. Like, if they get upset or sad and they want to go drinking and clubbing and when something good happens you still choose to go drinking and smoking. I feel like thats me with everything. Not just drinking and smoking but when I started drawing and painting it was because I was so lost in my mind that I need a distraction to feel grounded. Then, I would feel less bad the next day and while I was painting or drawing I found myself feeling bad or like I was just doing it because i HAD to distract myself.

How can I distract myself from being a shitty person?