4:24am

✨✨✨saludos a todos los que me conocen!!!!✨✨✨

Now that writing in my journal has become a regular maybe the daily thrills will be less intense. Well you know just less emotionally exhausting. I was reading over some them and omg like LEAN GET A GRIP!

I mean there is only so much i could really control but I can definitely control my outbursts of crazy.

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LA has really taken the freedom to release itself from quarantine. I suppose I shouldn’t be talking since i have a picnic every week. That being said, when I went for a walk I noticed i good handful of drivers did not have their masks on. That made me feel weird because when I looked at the people who did have them on I felt the whole pandemic hit me. What I mean is like I see that this is just going to be the way we live for a while. Extra caution with everything.

How I should be behaving with life. Honestly, life is a drag. Why do we have to be at a certain content? I know money is something that is in a way necessary for all of us to function with each other. No one does anything for anyone unless they gain something i suppose. But doesn’t that seem annoying?

I really fo wish for world peace! I wish there was no hurt in the world. No one would do anything harmful just live at peace with just being. Helping your fellow bean just be as well… that would be so peaceful.

I also wish for clean oceans but let me not open that up.

Maybe I just want sanity within myself and feel like i can’t achieve it because I’m uncomfortable on the planet. Existing makes me feel nuclear.