back to reality

I am currently driving back from a trip. On the way there I was dark so I din’t really get to see anything. Mostly, because I was sleeping ahaha. Honestly the trip was really fun. I didn’t realize I had to get away from everything. Not even everything. Not even away. Okay yes maybe away. Just a break.

This having responsibilities sucks ! I still find myself caring about the same issues as I was before. By that I mean.. whatever I’m just going to be very blunt because lets be honest lean you’re really only talking to yourself here, but i mean I still find myself caring if dionysus is is isn’t with that same girl. For healing reasons I won’t name drop. I know it’s ugly but he was very important to me and it hurts everyday that he just masks everything with another relationship.

I have thought about it alot recently and I think it’s time to stop the drinking on the regular. Drinking for anything really. Maybe socially but I don’t even want to say that because I know myself and I will find a reason to stay social. So, I will stop drinking starting the first of January. I always found New Year resolutions kind of tacky but I have learned that I am a person who needs some type of goal to stay structured.

Focus.

That will be my thirst NYR.

Travel. Sobriety. Focus.

:)