May 8, 2018: Rick Potion #9

It is a day after my birthday and i don't really feel anything about it. I worked yesterday so I couldn't do much. Today the fam bam is supposed to come and my grandma is making me tamales so I AM SOO LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT.  

On a separate note Josh called me for my birthday at midnight but my dumbass was asleep so i missed his call. He left a voicemail and all he said was that he was JUST calling to say happy birthday. It really does suck that he was just another person saying happy birthday because it's polite. But tbh I was just glad he took time out of his day to say happy birthday. He later snapped me but I don't think he meant to snap me and I replied so imma just not talk about that. 

I am watching rick and morty and this episode fucked me up!! I like literately feel so bad for morty. He goes threw so much and this show is SO woke UGH i love it

I should really stop saying I don't have friends because polo and gean have been here through all of my mental break downs, and my stupid decisions. They haven't really been talking to me or hanging out but I love them so much. 

okay i'll probably add stuff later but for now imma go cry lmao okie bye :)

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Okay I'm back to talk about secret shy boy. See I wrote this whole section on him but then there was a misunderstanding so I had to take it off but now i can i guess. Secret shy boy and I have told my mom. along with a handful of people but I don'[t want to kill this for myself. He's so sweet to me and i don't think anyone has like been all for me like that.  idk lol everything seems okay for at least a second.