mind doppelgänger

Something I have always found very um daunting is how easy it is for the mind to tick itself. The brain could be its own demise. Also, it is never satisfied. At least mine never is. Does my own brain play tricks on me? It feels like it sometimes. I try to justify the way i think sometimes by saying that I smoke a lot of weed. But when I’m sober it feels just as bad. I have so many thoughts I want to just focus on each thought and I know I can’t but I feel like everything is important to my own understanding of my growth.

I find that i contradict myself a lot. Strange. Is it? Okay I think its normal to contradict your thoughts because you go through all these different learning experiences. Other times, I am aware of things thats I know I strongly believe in or topics I strongly agree with… that I know I am wrong or at least being intense but I don’t want to. When it gets to that point where I become aware that I have to change. How many times could someone change their mind on a subject, though? I suppose until it feels right.

Side note, I finally finished The Legend of Korra and i feel stumped. I new that it wasn’t Avatar i excepted that very early on, but that ending?! Um no. Okay no one choosing Mako…good, them walking into the new spirit portal for a “vacation “ … fine okay good. I just feel left like um okay now what. The spirit laser was pretty incredible. The show had actually caught my interest and the ending was such a let down in my opinion.

SO, I have decided that it is okay to change my mind as many times as I want. I can do whatever I want and IF I WANTED TO i could go about my life without a care of the world. I suppose anyone can but anyways, choosing that just mean you’re choosing yourself instead of the world. Of course, when I say the word ‘world’ I’m just being dramatic and really mean the people outside of my own head.