it's been how long ?

I was scrolling through ig the other day and i was literally skipping through stories and i passed one that seemed like my high school. So, I went back to like see who’s story it was before i even looked at the story again and it was in fact one of my classmates from high school and he did in fact post our high school. He actually had posted some other accounts post on his story: the account was titled h***2016reunion. My mouth never dropped faster. There was no way it’s been ten years since I graduated high school. A whole decade has passed. If i’m being honest up until this year it didn’t feel like it.

I think what makes it a little trippy is to see the different places and mentality everyone is at. Initially I think realizing it was time for me to have MY high school reunion (something I have thought about since I was in middle school) I got slightly excited. I was excited I should say until it started to settle what this really meant. First, who would even attend ? Probably not anyone I would like to see. Which got me thinking about said people and then I just got anxious. I think social media has made it easier for my generation to keep in touch with people from our childhood. Then I realized that the people I would want to see I could on my day to day (sort of). Relatively access-able. However, it also made me realize i’ve been living very chaotically and i think I really have pushed people away with the way I carry myself and the choices I’ve made in my life. Like not that I regret things, I appreciate the experiences I’ve experienced, but I am getting older so some of my behavior is becoming negative. Things are no longer learning experiences they’re idiotic decisions. Funny, but I was watching Beyond the Villa and Charlie talking to Jeremiah about how his grandparents passed away and his life just feels heavier because his mid twenties are starting to feel like it, and that’s how these last six months have felt.