all shades of brown

Okay this is like the third attempt at typing a new entry. I have actually gotten half way through the page but forget to hit save and well yeah.

Anyways, lets see life update! Although, I’m unsure if this counts as a life update because most of the people the would even bother reading this I probably talk to daily so… just for the sake of my memory I shall continue with this life update announcement.

Well, I believe the last time my blog was active was in September, and boy has life changed since then. Well, I dyed my hair at the end of October because I like to believe I can commit to something I feel passionate about. This year (2021) I dressed up as Raven from Teen Titans. Yep, I did the whole assemble. With the white leggings, because I am obviously not that pale. The black bodysuit, the gems as the belt ; which were very poorly put together but worked for the night. Lastly, the cape. Oh jeez, the cape… was essential to the whole costume so I was very anxious I wouldn’t have it in time. Luckily, Iguana (one of my favorite vintage thrift stores in Hollywood) had a whole section dedicated to capes. I needed one that was purple silk from the inside and black suede on the outside. I mean I’m not really sure exactly what material Raven’s cape was made of but when I picked my costume that is what I pictured. Let me just state that it was not easy finding the same color even so yay to Iguana.

For November, big changes were made. I finally moved out into my own little apartment. Lol little apartment in the city. I have been here for two month. I’m starting the new year in a place that I completely own. Everything is how I want here. It honestly feels like a place I could unfold and relax. It feels so good to not have to worry about having someone in the same house hold you don’t want. Yes, it does get lonely, but I think feeling lonely is always going to be a thing. I always feel judged or anxious around people, yet I seem to keep myself surrounded by just random people really. I have also made a few good friendship through out my journey and I feel so lucky just by knowing those people. We all have our lives, I don’t need someone there twenty four seven.

( I remember when I dated kris I knew I had to go to school, get a job, find my own hobbies, have my own friends, establish my life before include anyone in it. That included relationships and friendships. Then I got so toxic )

Anyways, things are moving very slowly but changes are major.

I am figuring it out! I’m on a good path… just wait for it