speedy food

I have this horrible habit of eating junk food. Eating junk food isn’t a bad thing, if you know how to moderate it. I am a person who abuses how accessible and cheap it is to eat fast food. I obviously am not oblivious to all the negative affects of JUST eating junk, its just been so easy to get and eat and like not even think about it.

Last night tho, I ordered food and I felt so bleh. I didn’t finish it. It just feels like even if im full im not really full. It feels like I’m missing something in my body.

So can I rant about something.

I owe nothing to no one.

Maybe my mother.

Anyway, recently I get find myself dealing with what seems like the same issue just different circumstances. I try to keep to myself after the whole dionysus fiasco. That being said I don’t anyone has the right to feel entitled to anything from me. Some people I have encountered come into my life, correction: I allow people to come into my life and they don’t seem to know what the boundary is. It could be that its me. I am not setting the boundary clearer.

Still, this person we’ll call them Asua. So Asua, we used to be great pals but we had a fall out. That seems to be a consistent theme on this channel. Anyways, this was over two years ago or so and he think everything is going to be the same ?? No. And I don’t even mean it in a sissy way, like, just no. I hate the entitlement. The demand that it has to be on his terms when he needs. The pressure to validate his existence shouldn’t rely on me. Then i think that I don’t want to make anyone feel like they need my validation to be themselves. Andy made me feel that way. It wasn’t anything he did, it was that I saw how he thought i was the most pathetic a person could be. Devoting your whole being to be what this person want just to feel good about yourself. I don’t need to partake in that.