it’s your day

You know when you cry too much and your septum starts to move all the way to one side aha yea me too

I’m listening to Braxton Knight. Shoutout to angel i like it because i could feel nothing to it i just enjoy the music. It doesn’t make me cry more neither does it get rid of any feeling. Its just there. Like when i smoke. I M just there.

That is how I wish most of my life was spent. Just there. But i know i have potential. Theres so much that needs to be done.

I am also super EXTREMELY emotional. I think its just because i chose to believe in the upside of things. I know something can have all the red flags. But i chose to believe things can be okay. People who see that and try to put me down because of it or manipulate the situation to make it seem like all my ideals or beliefs are wrong are what make the problem.

I know being who i am is alright. My life will turn out fine. My problem now is the people i chose to give importance to.

She said she was the one person who would never turn her back. She would always be there for me. She is the one who’s the first one in line to suppress who i am. I still respect her still love her.

I just learned that i might have to love you from a distant.

I promised i would protect her from whoever hurt her. Apparently her happiness is away from me. None the less i will grant it.

I just want her life to be different than the troublesome childhood she had to live through.

One day i will be someone you can be proud of