We are we

Hai, so let me explain what restart means. It isn’t an actual restart it is just me finally doing what I should have used this for from the get go.

I will be as transparent as I need to be. Of cousre I should have been putting my energy into this website to begin with. My mind was always occupied with irrelevant drama I was causing for myself.

So, for those from lean’s past, she’s been real quiet these last two month. I am not complaining it feels good to have my own thoughts back. I am slightly concerned on why she’s hiding. Are you hiding lean ? I don’t think I locked you away, you chose to go ? Or… are you sad lean ? Could you be disappointed that you feel unaccepted and rather deal with my boring self ? I don’t want to run this alone.

You do tend to be a little extreme. Why can’t you be here with me ? We can be best friends, you don’t have to hate my whole being. I’m trying to look out for us. I know you think doing things your way is better but I don’t think people care enough about us to make you feel like that. I feel happy that we are we. You ARE my other half.

Lean ! We are like crazy but you are responsible and you know to carry your own. Don’t Hide from me. If you’ve taking this time to just see how I would feel without; I always have loved you and accept you so why can’t you do the same for me. Take care of me the way I support you.

I also didn’t mean to rant to you in this way. I just no longer feel ashamed of us. It’s time you catch up.