x marks the spot

Today is the day i start. LMAO like really start.

No i’ve started before today, however, today the next step (initiation) ties me to this new person i am uncovering. This can only bring me closer to the person i’m trying to become! Its strange how some things require you to jump ahead of yourself in order to help you achieve what you’re getting ahead of.

I keep finding myself making the same choice over and over again. I keep waking up in between these four walls. The air here just reminds me of the stupid girl i was… am. I know I have walked away with one giant thread attaching me back. I move forward, dragging this weight no one sees.

The thread hurt my hand. I’m gripping on to it while the creature attached at the end struggles to be released.
So I do.

Release it.

Why won’t it move?

I can’t focus on that now. My clock is about to stuck! If i finished this I can only hope with all i have that it’ll be there still.

Hopefully, it won’t hurt my hand no more.

Oh ! time to get off !