abrupt withdraw

I am so unstable. There. I said it. LMAO and toxic at that. Okay, no on some serious shit I notice how toxic my habits are to other people. Which is cool and all right I frankly do not care what people decide to do with their lives, not to sound mean, but it does affect me if I am being toxic to people that I do care about… obviously.

What I mean to say is, I should be motivating others around me to do better and encourage them to be their best self. I started my life off very selfish. Child like however you want to phrase it, you get the point its all the same.

NOT RIGHT

Anyways, I am trying to move forward, if I have depression i will try my best to not let myself stear away from my plans. I need to stay focused and semi distracted. I just have to keep myself busy. I just have so much anxiety and that turns to overthinking to the point where I overwhelm myself. I want to be normal

maybe thats why I take so many pictures its so easy to get reassurance that way..