every time I close my eyes

Does anyone else repeat a song literally all day ? No, no, I mean all day. Like, not one other song to be played. Mom put your hand down. Well, I do that a lot. Sometimes I do it by albums but that’s less intense because it involves more songs to rotate. You know, I also feel like I have to avoid people because I hate lying, and honesty you can’t always be one hundred percent honest with everyone. You know, and that is sad. You should be able to be as open as possible and I suppose ,you can. I mean no one is telling you not to but then there comes this anxiety … right. Of people talking about your life because you decided it was okay by choosing to talk about your life so openly. Then, of course you cannot change anyone from NOT talking or judging someone you know. I don’t know that goes against their freedom of speak or whatever.

You know I am so tired of trying to fit everyone’s standards. I could barely fit my own standards. Do I even know what my own standards are? Sometimes it feels like I don’t even have any, and makes me wonder weather or not I’m strict enough on myself.Ugh!!! BUT I HATE RULES! I could not stress this enough. They cause me discomfort.