sanity check

It is time. For me to quit playing myself. I honestly have no excuse for the way I have been acting. You know not fully rational. I have acted so nasty because I felt like I had to keep someone in my life. Like, I hate to admit it but I became those typical, annoying, crazy girlfriends you hear guys complaining about all the time. Not only that but I acted even nastier when I lost control of the situation. I dragged people into my problems when it was none of their business AND they never wanted to be apart of it to begin with.

I still believe I need go to therapy. I rather pay someone to hear me rant and then help me figure it out. At least that way I know off the bat, she/he won’t really care but be genuine enough to help me figure it out. They might talk shit about me one day when they go home to their significant other but I mean it won’t be TOO bad because they probably will have way more stories than my boring hour.

I didn’t really get any sleep last night and I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to sleep tonight either. I just like don’t feel comfortable.

Okay so I woke up to smoke because no one was in the house so like perfect time right? Well, right when I was about to pack my bowl my mom walks into the restroom LMAOOOO it was so funny hahaha i felt like I was little getting in trouble. I just laughed and she was like

“dude seriously “

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

It was funny and then I was like fuck what a vibe killer. She wasn’t upset LOL which was cool but still. Reasons like that is why i still want to find my own place. Some people feel like i am not ready to be on my own because I don’t know how to control my alcohol and weed intake. Which feels strange I don’t know what to say or feel towards that.